It's been so long since I've even written. It's not like too many people read this, but I like that. I like that I have something a little private in my life. It's been a weird month. Three weeks ago I had a boyfriend for about 3 days, so at least I can't say that I haven't dated anybody in seven years! I am praying for Eric, and I hope he grows in the Lord to become a consistent man of God.
I also went out with my friend Derek, whom I like a bit. Well, the date consisted of a lot of pentacostal stuff, aarg! But nothing will happen between me and him (him and I?), and that's fine. There is a lot of work that the Lord needs to do in me before I will be ready to date. I have been growing rapidly in the past three months, since I finally submitted the issue of missions to the Lord. I am also focusing lately on putting others above myself- scripture tells us to regard others as more important than ourselves.
Struggling of course, with the usual issues of depression, but the Lord has been faithful to me, and is helping.
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| Date: | 2006-12-20 21:45 |
| Subject: | Hard Knock Life |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  contemplative |
It's been a while since I've written in my LJ. It's a hard time right now because Eric and I were really getting along, and things had been going really well. I've never known anyone like Eric before. Everyone sees that him and I make a great couple. So we tried dating for a while, which lasted three days. This part really hurts. Because he opened up to me, I opened up to him. It has taken me so long to become more people-oriented, and now I kind of feel like I won't ever trust anyone again.
But I am resolved to remain obedient to the Lord. He is with me, and I know that.
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Yesterday I had a physical, and I lost 7 pounds in the month of october. I was so freakin thrilled! And a month before that I had lost 9 pounds since my doctor had last seen me in March. So, since March I've lost 16 pounds. And last friday I went wardrobe shopping, and stuff fit me and now I have some new clothes and they're awesome. Colors that look good on me, and trendy pants galore!! And a black Adidas-type outfit. Woo-hoo. Dr. Fried is thrilled with my weight loss and that I'm doing Taekwondo, and I brought him a list of what I eat. There are some things he will want me to modify, but only at a time when I'm not losing. So right now he's pretty happy with my diet. I was so excited. Then I told my Taekwondo instructor, and he was happy, but also mentioned that I should keep track of measurements because as I'm building muscle from the TKD it's going to weigh more than fat so the measurements will help tell me what my progress is. So I'm going to pick up a tape measurer today from costco, if they have one, as well as some bottled water.
But all glory has to be given to the Lord for giving me the strenght to be patient with this whole thing.
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| Date: | 2006-08-27 08:27 |
| Subject: | Stuff and Crap |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  crazy |
Today, I am going to try Calvary Baptist in Canton since I'll be living closeby. And frankly I could give a flying fig if anyone thinks I'm wrong or not. I feel like I'm lost and drowning at Lakes. Maybe it's the sugar pill part of my birth control pack talking, but we'll see.
Yesterday my aunt threw a wedding shower in Canada for my sister and Buzz. I said I would go if Susie and Bruce got home early enough, and they did, so I did. It was kind of fun. My sister Jackie was a bit bombed, and after cake was cut she went smearing it on people. She went for me and I grabbed both arms, got up, and ran as I pushed her back. And then when she went down the back porch stairs to get other people, I grabbed a cake plate and snuck up on her, nailed her on the side of the face with it, and took off back up the stairs.
My sister and I had a chance to talk, and things are better. Not that I care horribly much or approve of what's what, but at least I'm not the family bad guy anymore.
The really cool thing------ I got an orange stripe friday in Taekwondo!!!! For (and I think it's called) 9 movement number 1. I love Taekwondo! All I think about!
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| Date: | 2006-08-19 07:47 |
| Subject: | My sister |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  pissed off |
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
So yesterday, my sister called while I was in Taekwondo (phone was off of course) and left a happy birthday message for me. And then Amy took me to Cold Stone. When I got home I was going to return my sister's call, when another message appears on my phone. Seems I didn't return her message fast enough. The message was about a good five minutes long, and started with her telling my I was a two year old, that I don't know God, that I need to find Jesus, that she's sick of this "sh*t," that I need to examine myself, that she's sick of fighting. All because I didn't call her back right away.
So I called her and tried to pretend I didn't hear that message (Michelle was with me, laughing at this retardedness), and then we had some sweet talk for a moment, and then she started in "Dayna, you preach Jesus but you don't actually know him, and you haven't ever examined yourself and your life, and blah blah blah, I'm a dirty tramp (ok ,well that one was a quote from Mr. Deeds!)." And so after moments of dumb convo, she was swearing at me, calling me names, telling me I wasn't saved, going on and on and on, and then she said she wanted the bottom line from me. She wanted to know why I haven't been making efforts with her, why I haven't been going to their apt, why blah blah blah, and so I told her "fine, I will give you the bottom line if you'll actually listen to me and not interrupt" so that set her off again with more insults and swear words. So I hung up on her. It was either hang up on her or the f-bomb was going to be dropped about a thousand times. So I chose hang up. My guess is that after that happened she probably called my mom, my dad, and Canada to complain, and my guess is that my dad probably took my side, and my mom will probably lecture me today.
I can't win. All because I waited two hours to call her back.
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Ok. Let's see which family members remember to call me on my birthday. I also don't have any plans tonight, and hopefully I can find someone to hang out with. Birthdays alone are rather depressing. I do have Taekwondo tonight at 6:30, and I'm a geek so that's becoming my life. Can't help it- I love it!
Off to work soon.
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So, part of this eating healthy for Taekwondo thing is that at 4:30 I poured a buttload of Merlot on my chicken to marinade, and then I went to a movie with my mom. I got home around ten, and as I removed each piece of chicken to put on the pan to cook, I had to laugh that my chicken was a dark purple. I've seen meat take a light color, but never like this. Purple Chicken?? Ha ha ha!
It's cooking and I can only hope that I don't get a buzz from it during class and accidently kick a random person...
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Today I went to church, and Laurel Park mall to get my eyebrows waxed (ouch), and pick up two items from Clinique. And I went to Bed Bath and Beyond to pick up some items. I got a bath towel for when I move to the apt with Mary and her brother. I also picked up an 18 piece set of airtight containers. My life is going to be really busy starting tomorrow, and I needed to also pick up groceries and have most of my food ready for the week. This way I can keep it healthy. I picked up two 24 packs of Dasani water because it was on sale, apricots, cucombers, green peppers, no salt added canned green beans, fuji apples, honey wheat thins, fiber for life (guaranteed to make you poody), ten Pria bars (110 calories and a great chocolate fix, also on sale), value pack of boneless skinless chicken boobs, and a four pack of mini merlots. The four pack of Merlot was because I am marinating the chicken, and then I am going to cook it with some chopped shallots and fresh basil. I also cooked a huge pot of brown Basmati rice which is extremely healthy, and great tasting. Taekwondo yellow belt- here I come!
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Jeptha made a vow to the Lord that if God gave him the battle, he would offer up as a burnt sacrifice the first thing to greet him at his arrival home. It happened to be his daughter that greeted him, and therefore Jeptha was grieved, and his daughter asked to go into the woods and morn that she would have to die as a virgin. That story bothered me for quite some time and gave me some issues of faith, but now I have a different perspective, and it doesn't bother me. But isn't it kind of sick that my friends and I actually came up with menu items including her??
What to do and not to do if you are Jeptha: Jeptha my man, you are an idiot. First of all, don't make vows to God. Second of all, don't make dumb vows to Him. If you do make a vow to God to sacrifice the first thing that comes to greet you, isn't it plausible to consider that since you have a daughter at home, that she might greet you, considering she more likely than not misses her dad and would come running at the sight of your arrival? Are you that daft? Or couldn't you have though to send a goat or a camel or something with a note to your house saying "daughter, I have made a vow to the Lord, and when I get home send out the family dog first to greet me, and I will give you the details why later." That way the only thing burnt and sacrificed would be the family dog. Or, instead make a vow to shave your head, or to pray 12 times a day, but come on!
Jeptha's Daughter: Your daddy's an idiot. Sorry hon, but she is. First of all, asking to go into the woods to mourn being a virgin was a good idea. I guess you need some time to grieve considering you're about to be stabbed, burnt and cooked. But, Jeptha's daughter- you're also an idiot. Why would you go back to your father? He's the one who made the vow, not you. My suggestion: Go into the woods, out the other side, avoiding the Rodents of Unusual Size, run really really fast, find yourself married in another town, working by making purple linens. And you won't have to mourn being a virgin (cause you won't be one), and you won't have to be a sacrifice for your father (who is an idiot).
Menu items:
1. Roasted Daughter: Jeptha's daughter makes a cripsy, fragrant and delightfully flavorful menu item in this roasted burnt offering. Roasted to a fine crisp, she is marinated in a nice terriaki and goes great with a dry Merlot.
2. Fried Virgin: For those who enjoy a good arm once in a while, these arms are first seasoned with paprika, hyssop and myrr. Goes great with cheap beer. Great for those who can only afford the pigeon offering in the temple (or was it doves? Too tired can't remember).
3. Dessert items include French Silk Dead Daughter: Light, creamy, and at times a little tough. Chocolate cream and Jeptha's daughter's fatty areas combine to make this delectable cream pie, which will have you wondering "is cannibalism really that bad?"
4. Drink items include: Mourning Virgin Daquiry. Great for those who have taken the Nazarite vow and do not touch alcohol. Not a drink for the faint-hearted.
5. Jeptha's daughter may be served with a side of goat, or manna. Locusts and honey upon special order (please allow three days notice for delivery). Milk and honey also available.
Yes, I know I'm sick. Te he he.
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| Date: | 2006-08-13 00:00 |
| Subject: | My sick mind |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  cheerful |
Ok. The next journal post after this one tonight will be about something very odd- Jeptha's daughter. Paul, my friend Eric, and I were talking about things from the Bible we had been bothered by or that we thought were funny, and we came up ideas about- and I'm sorry for this- menu items including Jeptha's daughter, preceeded by what to do or not to do if you are Jeptha, and what to do and what not to do if you are Jeptha's daughter. Odd, I know. But we were crackin' up!
So, my morning. I woke up, and remembered that this was the day designated as my cheat day since I have been extremely disciplined with my food intake since I've been in Taekwondo. So I thought to myself "self, what do I want this morning for breakfast?" And then I came to the realization that I wanted a sausage egg and cheese mc muffin from McDonald's, along with a breakfast burrito and a hash brown. It was tasty, but a very bad tasty idea. Within about one minute of swallowing the last bite, my face broke out in this large red rash in the shape of a line, from my left nostril down to the left side of my chin. It has gone down, but I don't think McD's is on my cheat day list anymore. Having the craps from the dairy, I am used to, but this is a new thing. Freaky.
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| Date: | 2006-08-12 07:20 |
| Subject: | Class |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | amused |
Last night's class- was to say the least- nasty-but-good!
We worked on Sparring Skills 1 and 2, and if I can type it it means that 1 is jump (side mvmnt), front kick with back leg, punch punch, jump back jump back. 2, if I'm thinking correctly, is jump, front kick, high axe kick, punch punch, jump back jump back, step back (leg goes to other side). Close to the end of class he had us all sit down, and called everyone up one by one to demonstrate our sparring skills. One guy with a yellow belt demonstrated I think, numbers 3 and 4, and he got a stripe on his yellow belt. When he got to me he asked me if I'd like to try, and of course I said "yes sir," and I knew the skills, did them well (for a beginner), and earned a green stripe on my white belt. Now my white belt has a tad bit of color. According to the artform, I lost a tiny bit of innocence! Well, I can't wait for next class. God bless us, everyone.
For Angela,
Sir, do you shake your belt at me?
No, but I do shake my white belt.
Do you shake your belt at me?
No, but I do shake my white belt.
Sir- do you realize I have a black belt?
I didn't, but now that I know... need your laundry done?
Hopefully that at least got a tiny giggle. I'm extremely tired and not making much sense at the moment (at least that's my excuse).
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Taekwondo tomorrow! Last night's class was awesome! My teacher is hilarious, tough but funny! Each of us took turns holding these pads and we kick them, and my teacher said to one of the students "you call that a yell? Let me show you how to yell! So he went up to the target (the young girl holding the pad) and he lets out this yell, and the girl jumps back, and we all laugh after he said "see the target moved and I didn't even kick it!" It's a great class. I feel great after, and my kicks weren't too bad either!
Can't wait for tomorrow. I've been staying disciplined with what I eat just so I can be on par for class. Loving it. Want a yellow belt... Wonder what the test is for that.
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A couple of weeks ago there were some Jehova's Witnesses handing out information in Naomi's neighboorhood (lady I care for), and when I saw it it was an advertisement for a big conference in Saginaw going on this weekend. So two weeks ago I asked pastor Gross to order some tracts (normally I find tracts a bit cheesy, but I made an exception here) designed to be handed to Jehova's Witnesses, and he ordered 200 of them. Yesterday morning I got up at 5:40 to go to the conference and Stu picked me up at 6:45. We got to saginaw around 8, and we stood at the parking garage entrance/exit to hand out tracts where there were groves (droves?)(can't think too tired) of them coming out.
Stu would basically give them the tracts, and most would refuse, some thought they were programs, and many of them returned them to us when they realized what they were. Some people were very annoyed. One woman, when her kid asked what we were doing, said to her child "they're counterwitnessing," which I found funny, and so did she. One JW was nice and picked one up off the ground to hand back to me, which was a good witness on their part. One old coot, with a hearing aid, took the tract, looked at it, and threw it back at me hard (now I really want to join after that), and Stu got a kick out of it when I said "yay- my first real persecution as a Christian!" A little melodramatic, but I wasn't expecting this seemingly peaceful group to be so violent as to throw the tracts back at us as this one old coot did. Honestly it was a bit funny.
Today we changed the approach. Stu could not go so I brought Jeff with me. Te he he. Jeff was so burly with his loud voice and he was like "we're handing out salvation here, it's not just for the select few." I stood there, and read from the Bible. Ephesians and Romans. Can't get better than Romans. Then we took the leftover tracts and put them on as many cars (and in as many open windows) as we could.
Can't wait for Taekwondo!
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| Date: | 2006-08-03 08:43 |
| Subject: | My love |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | awake |
This poos. I have almost five whole days (said in a whiney 1960's black and white children's sitcom voice) before my next Taekwondo lesson! Not fair. I practiced tuesday evening a little bit, and las night I worked hard. My kicks are a bit higher than last friday, but I think I am landing them incorrectly. Yesterday I practiced ten high kicks with each leg, then punches, ten double kicks (one high kick with one and one lower kick with the other), and then more punches, and then ten more single lower kicks with each leg, more punches. Then I had Michelle hold my knees for crunches, and then stand behind me so I could lift both legs together and she would push them down. I was sweating bullets and it was great! Who would have thought I could get a full workout in my bedroom?!
Monday monday monday!
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| Date: | 2006-07-31 10:35 |
| Subject: | At work |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | cheerful |
I am at work. All I am thinking about is "can I make it to Taekwondo tonight?" I am on that wonderful monthly and with birth control I never know how anything will go at any time. But I really want to go tonight. And the interesting thing is this- because I know I'm going to class tonight (if I can), I specifically chose healthy foods so I can be at my best. I loved the class. I think this may be the thing that can make me disciplined.
I am also looking forward to starting full time with benefits and everything, although scared at how busy my life will be. I know the first few weeks will be hard because of the sleep schedule, and then watching Andy and surviving Taekwondo I might either get really healthy from the exercise, or really sick from lack of sleep and running myself ragged. Usually I don't get sick that much, so we'll see!
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| Date: | 2006-07-30 08:12 |
| Subject: | My love |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | cheerful |
I went to a Taekwondo class... and I loved it!
Hard stuff though! I have never had a puddle of sweat before as big as the one I had at my first lesson. Not only does the teacher push you beyond your limits with the moves, but the moves are repetetive, and they don't stop. So after one kick, you do another, and after a while you switch, but you never stop. I was doing some research, and it says that martial arts like this work all of the major muscle groups at once, which is one of the reasons the art is so healthy. I also love the respect in the class that is shown to all people and most of all, the teacher.
The atmosphere is very welcoming at this class, and I felt at ease even being the bigger one there. And though the teacher let me modify a few of the exercises, his rule is that you never stop, so my workout was amazing. Good times!
Off to church.
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| Date: | 2006-07-22 18:11 |
| Subject: | The party |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | amused |
I am sooooo happy! This awesome couple from my church started a singles ministry, that ranges older than the college ministry. Today was the first event- a bbq at their place. I got to go swimming for the first time in a year! I was so happy, but now I am so red and burnt on my face that it feels so hot. We talked about future singles events, like a Uchre tournament and a trip to Frankenmeuth. It's just a nice change.
Also, I got hired for a full time position at Corrigan with full benefits, and I am quite excited about it. God is good, and He is doing some exciting things in my life, like in September I will be moving to Westland and living with Mary and her brother. I will be near my school. So many exciting and scary things happening in my life, but God is good!
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| Date: | 2006-07-22 09:41 |
| Subject: | The Date |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | content |
I had a date. Yes me. First date in five years. Amy met someone from eharmony and right before they closed her account she met someone and they scheduled a date. For accountability reasons she wanted to bring someone and since Stu was being a poo, and didn't feel comfortable going because "he might be overprotective" (said in baby wimpy voice), so Amy's date offered to bring a friend and have it be a double blind date. So Amy asked me if I was a brave little toaster, and I said fine. And then my next thought- "great, this blind date's going to take one look at me and be like 'gross.'"
So last night I ran to the store, and found a really pretty dark purple shirt with silver stuff on it, and some silver earrings, and I showered, put on my coconut lotion, blow dried my hair (I got to admit, I have great hair and I love it dearly), and put on a small amount of green eyeshadow and a bit of lipstick, and I wiped the sweat off of my upper lip and left to go to the Novi Town Center.
Two things I hate doing in front of people: eating, and eating dessert. We went to this rib and chicken called Famous Dave's, and I had to eat in front of two men. So I ordered what I thought would be the least embarassing food on the menu, the charbroiled chicken, apples and a baked potato. The chicken still had it's greasy skin, and I usually eat boneless chicken, so it was embarassing enough trying to cut the chicken up without flinging it off the plate (but I managed). And the date went well, Amy was quiet, her date wasn't, I apparently was funny enough to make both of them laugh, and then after dinner I thought I was in the clear when, to my dismay, Amy's date says, "how about we go to Cold Stone?" Two thoughts ran through my head: "crap, eating dessert in front of men," and "even more crap...it's dairy." So I looked at Amy, and she said, we'll go. I agreed as if it was a great idea, and secretly crapped my pants in angst until we got there. Well, no physical crap, but you get the idea. And I ordered the smallest size cold stone (the like it size), and sure enough after about ten minutes after finishing the ice cream it was about time for me to go (now I mean literally and physically).
All in all, we had a good time. My date was kind of shy, and I frankly have no idea whether or not we meshed, or if he liked me or not, but at least it was a date. And now I'm happy to say that I've had a date within the past five years. Yay.
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| Date: | 2006-07-17 11:25 |
| Subject: | Stuff |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | calm |
I watched a special on the Mall of America. I really want to go there now. My dream is to one day get a rental car, 1,000 dollars to spend at the mall, and to go there and purchase many many items. There is no sales tax at the mall either (don't know if it's the same in the state or something, but I'm not too knowledgeable (spelling?) about much other than Mormons and Music. There is supposed to be tons of odd shops, and an amusement park, and so much other fun stuff. Not too big a fan of the Hooters, but- honest confession: I've been there and the wings are awesome! Shhh. Please don't tell anyone. And now I'm sitting here until about 12:30 and then Andy and I will bake some stuff; a chocolate chip bread for him and a whole wheat bread for me made with agave nectar instead of sugar. I made him banana pancakes for breakfast as a treat, and he walks out and says "I don't think I can finish this." Appreciated??
It was nice to have the day off of work to stay here with Andy. I have been getting burnt out lately, and it was really nice to just be able to sleep, except for the horrible dream I had, which I'm not going to get into because it's a bit embarassing and quite scary.
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| Date: | 2006-07-15 10:05 |
| Subject: | Events |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | calm |
Well,
Got to sleep in today. Last night was nice. I BBQ'd for Amy, Paul and Andy, and it took us like an hour to get the grill started. We made chicken kabobs, Kosher hot dogs, and smores. It was a fun time. Of course the chicken wasn't done until about 9:30 because of the grill, but finally we got it all done, and then Paul and I sat there and watched Whose Line Is It Anyway(?). It was an episode guest starring Robin Williams, who honestly I do like but sometimes I feel he tries a little too hard to get all the attention. But it was still a pretty fun episode.
Well, not too much planned for today. Andy will go out with his Papa (grandpa), and I will more likely than not run to Family Christian, even though they are so going to hell. They are under Catholic ownership now, and open on sundays, bringing books and items into the store that are un-biblical, and the customer service is so money driven that it can no longer be called Christian. So, before I run up there, I'm going to sit there and try to find any other Christian bookstores that may or may not be in the area. And who have the Following God series.
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